Some Answers

Why does a text message mean so much to me?

It only acquires value when there's a physical gap I can't bridge. My main love language is "words", so it hurts me a lot when I cannot talk to people I trust. I have tried to share to people who are available, to people who are around, but it's just not the same. I seek people who know me with my slightest sigh, people who understand my lips' most minute twitch, my bowed head or curled forehead.

I don't open up easily; it takes time and a lot of trust. But the moment I do, I go to the same person over and over again because I trust him.

It's a lot more difficult to consult non-Christian friends. I have a lot of them, but most of their answers and solutions displaces God. I seek my closest Christian friends because I know I can find comfort in them; I can please God with them.

In the past few months I haven't been able to talk to my dearest brother in faith. He has his reasons, and I respect him. But the detachment has aggravated my loneliness. The moments when I am filled with hurts and pains have been my loneliest moments because I cannot share them to him. I have cried a lot of times. I have waited long hours, days even.

Yet, I praise God for the detachment. It has been very painful dealing with your problems alone but I have realized one great lesson-- I have never been alone. Those solitary moments have become my moments with God. I have cried, and I have cried out to him. I have waited, and I have waited in prayer. Though there is still a bit of pain in me, I know what God has taught me-- Trust in Him. He knows what's best for all of us.

I may not be able to bring back the lost communication. Still, I thank my dearest brother in faith because God has used him to tell me that the cross conquers all.

Thank you dear brother. I praise God for you. I thank you for the friendship and the love and the support. I pray that we grow together in Christ's love. I miss you.

ps. if you can read this, I will love it if you give me another bracelet for my 19th birthday. (^_^)